Monday, May 20, 2013

Just an update


It seems like it has been forever since I have last updated on here. I guess that’s a good thing considering I have been so busy. I really enjoy it when we are so busy because then I don’t have time to sit and think about things. We re-did our flower bed since the one we did last year was over taken my weeds. This year we did so much better of a job and it looks awesome. Sawyer and I kept saying “I love the flower bed much more this way” And let me tell you it took us about 5 days to finish it. We were both sore for about a week afterwards.  We used red mulch instead of the dark brown I picked last year. Still kept the same type of shape but we built the wall up a little bit. Last year we just put these pavers around it and mulch was always in the yard. Now the mulch can’t blow out! WOOHOO. Well I mean I guess technically it can blow out but it won’t be as easy. You won’t lose an eye when you’re mowing the lawn now because wood chips won’t be flying everywhere. We would have to wear goggles just to mow because those chips would fly every direction. Mavyn seems to like the flower bed too. She is always walking all over the flowers and peeing in the flower bed rather than the yard. It is so hard to stay mad at her tho because she is so stinkin’ cute.
I also finally got my medical records and new patient info sent over to Dr. Kwak-Kim (pronounced “kwa” not Quack) HAHA! I followed up with them on last Tuesday to ensure they have received my textbook in the mail. And when I say text book I’m not even kidding. It was the same size as Sawyers chemistry book. And It was a chemistry book for nursing majors. So you know that thing was HUGE!! They did receive it and said they would contact me in about 2 weeks. They have to put together my file, verify insurance, the Dr. has to look over it, etc. I then asked about how far out the appointments are and she said about a month. So the good news is that we are still looking at the end of June beginning of July. WOOHOO!!!! Now we are just waiting on that call to give us our date for the appointment!!! We have decided to kind of make it a vacation type thing when we go to Illinois. We are driving instead of flying. Not to just save money but to go on a roadtrip and see things along the way. We are also going to buy this thing called the City pass. It’s one price for 5 different attractions. On the 4th and 5th ticket you had to pick between 2 places, but we have already done our research and decided where we are going! So not only are we super excited for our appointment but we are also excited for our vaca. Also we have decided not to board Mavyn while we are gone since she has always been everywhere with us. Tiki and Juicy are used to being boarded so Mavyn gets to go too!!!

On another note I did get in contact with Dr. M to discuss further treatment with her under Dr. Kwak-Kims protocol (assuming she says its OK to proceed under treatment). I was a little shocked with her response considering I did tell her it could include IVIg, intralipids, or other meds and treatments she may not approve of. Check out her response below.
 
Mother’s day was also great. Went to church at my gmas church which we LOVE to go to, and then we went to the country club for lunch then over to my moms house to hang out for the rest of the day. I thank God every single day for the family he has blessed me with. They have all opened up their arms and welcomed Sawyer into our family.  I can’t wait until Sawyer and I have our own cute little family together. J
 

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Lately


The past couple of weeks I have been thinking a lot about Orangy, who would now be 2 years old. Who is Orangy? Orangy is the baby that Sawyer and I lost at 11 weeks in Sept 2010, due date April 2011. We got the name Orangy from that iphone pregnancy app. It would tell you all about what your body is doing and what the baby is developing that week and would also tell you what size the baby was compared to stuff. Our baby was the size of a small orange at some point. So we referred to the baby as Orangy, it was a cute nick name that Sawyer thought of.
My 21st birthday came in December and I didn’t really care, I was so broken that nothing mattered. Sawyer did everything she could to make my day special. She even signed my birthday card with our puppy’s names and a line, she claimed that she put the pen in there paw and that’s the line they made. I then saw a circle with wings on it and the name “Baby Orangy” under it. That following April when our baby would have been due, we did a balloon release.  Blue, pink, and orange. We wrote messages on every balloon to send up to Heaven for our baby Orangy. She also bought me a baby kitty that month. A Ragdoll to be specific. I don’t like just regular plain ol’ cats. I like the “designer” ones.  Baxter is a Lynx Seal Pointe Ragdoll and he is the sweetest little boy I know. I had been begging and begging to get a cat but Sawyer kept saying no and that she didn’t like cats. I think she got him for me because she knew he would help me cope. And now she loves Baby B so much and always mentions how she never thought she would ever love a cat this much.  
 
How did I manage to have someone in my life like Sawyer who has been there for me as much as she has? Through the good, the bad, the ugly, and the pretty.  She is the person who is there to catch me the second a fall and believe me that’s a lot more often than you think. She always puts me back on my feet and reminds me to just breathe and that everything will be OK.

 
 
 

Monday, May 6, 2013

Weekend fun


This weekend was a blast. Sawyers mom came up and Saturday we ran around all day doing a little bit of shopping and then on Sunday we went to the Thunder vs. Grizzlies. It was sooo much fun. We had been to a Thunder game before but just during the regular season. A playoffs game is so much more fun. Sunday night when we were getting ready for bed we both talked about how the weekend went by way to quick. I like days like that because it keeps my mind busy and I don’t have time to sit and think about things.
 

On another note I decided to email Dr. M on Friday to see how she felt about working along side with Dr. KK depending on her findings. So hopefully I hear back from her soon. If not that’s okay too. OU also called me on Friday to let me know they sent my records out so woohoo. I am hoping to get everything in the mail to Dr. KK by atleast this Friday but surely sooner. We are getting closer and closer. J

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

One step at a time

Sawyer called over to Dr. Kwak-Kim office last week and we found out how to go about getting an apt. Before they will even put you on the waiting list you must fill out the 20 page new patient packet, which is no big deal. I think we are both pros by now when it comes to filling out this type of paperwork. So you fax that over, and your medical records unless there are more than 100 pages then you have to snail mail them. Of course mine is like a freaking textbook. I mean 3 IVF 2 FET and 2 different REs, its got to be like 8904759073490 pages long. Once they receive all of that stuff they will then verify your insurance coverage and call you back in 2 weeks with the update. TWO WEEKS TO VERIFY INSURANCE! Holy crap. After that your on the list. As of last week the earliest we could be seen for a consult would be the end of June! Really its not that bad of a wait. At OU I think we waited 4-6 months to get in. So now I'm back to getting all my medical records. I have PDF copies from CARE fertility, OU usually takes about a week and half to get theres together, and I have a PDF from Lakeside from my miscarriage. So just waiting on OU. This time I'm going to make myself a copy that way I don't have to ever wait again on OU. By the time I get my records over to Dr. KK it will probably be the end of July before we can get in. Time flies but then again it drags on and on.

Something else that has been on my mind about going to see Dr. KK is she works along side with your RE. Well I don't currently have an RE. I refuse to go back to OU, I didn't get a good feeling when we went to Tulsa fertility, and then Integris wont even let me step foot in there office bc I am gay. I mean I could fight it and tell them Ill sue them but I don't think I would receive the care I deserve. Theres only 3 fertility clinics in Oklahoma and that's why I went to Texas to CARE fertility and then SIRM. We are lost on where we should go. I LOVED Dr. M at CARE but they only cared about $$ and then it seemed like the communication between me, nurses, finance, Dr. M, embryologist.. EVERYONE was just not good at all. NOBODY was on the same page. And then Dr. Saleh at SIRM its just a blah kind of guy. Not very personal, there to get the job done, but he also advised I don't proceed with treatment. This is where I have no clue what to do. I don't even know if Dr. M would agree to following Dr. KK protocol, I mean ultimately Dr KK is the one who is calling all the shots. She makes the decisions and every single lab/ultrasound is sent to her for reviewing. I just wish she would do the RE part. Even tho she is in Illinois I would still travel. So I guess I need to start looking at more fertility clinics in Texas. Ugh.

I know that we haven't even had our consult yet to see if there are any underlying problems to see if its even worth moving forward with another cycle. But I am just that type of person who likes to have a plan. I Just want to be prepared on what to do next after our consult. I guess that is something I picked up from my momma. She always had to have a plan, and know what was going on. And she didn't like spur the moment type stuff. I know growing up asking for a friend to stay the night that same day would always make her so mad hahaha.